contradictions

Apparently I am full of them.
I love men but do not want a relationship, and it's easy enough for me to find them here, but I continue to prey on the rotting corpses of past relationships.
I'm really afraid that I'm getting fat, but it doesn't change my eating or lack-of-exercising habits.
My best friend here is beginning to shift. I used to be really close with a girl who's very quiet and reserved, but it gets boring being around people like that all the time. I also don't appreciate being told what to do, or dragging people around when I'm drunk...it goes on. It seems I have found someone who is a little off the beaten path and more fun to be around for now. We'll see how that goes, but it's looking positive so far.
Relationships in general seem to be looking better these days, with the exception of me scaring people off with honesty. For something that is supposed to be the best policy, people sure don't like hearing it very often.
I should stop talking to people who I shouldn't talk to, and start calling my parents more often.
And work on my essay due on Tuesday.
I won't though.